hmmm

my resolve is not perfect it would seem

Matt and Amanda's engagement party was much fun, even though I was driving so not drinking.

I caved after a while, and had a cigarette. but i only had 2. so its not so bad.

had a chat to Jane about quitting, she's reading a book about it at the moment, and was saying about how smokers lie to themselves very well. I am aware that me saying "2 fags is better than 10" is pure crap, but there we go

Jamie is very drunk, I am stone cold sober. This is not helping matters. I dislike being around drunk people when I am sober, but I refuse to start drinking now to "catch up"

so we shall play some worms with andy and then go to bed.

more filmage

Jamie, Andy and myself have just been to see Wallace and Gromit: Curse of the Were-Rabbit

It was very funny. I also liked the Madagascar penguin short film shown before it, I'm now actually tempted to see Madagascar.

Trailer for Ice Age 2 was also very amusing.

Although, the one downer on the evening.. Jamie drove us in Andy's new car, cos he wanted to have a play and see what it was like (as its a brand new car), so on the way there I was squashed in the back seat (its not really meant for more than 2 people), and on the way back Jamie terrified the life out of me by driving down a windy B road at over 80 miles an hour, cos he wanted to see what the car was capable of. I know he was in complete control and it was perfectly safe, but he scared the crap out of me (cos i was in the passenger seat, when he did over 100 on the motorway I was fine, cos i was in the back).

but he's very very sorry about it its very funny. he keeps apologising. :-)

fag update

almost 8pm.

have had no fags today (so far)

i'm starting to get a bit edgy now, i need to find something to do with my hands. unfortunately I dont have any huge balls of wool to knit pointlessly with my fingers, but I may have to buy one as i think its a good idea. maybe i'll try drawing something. just something to do with my hands to stop me reaching for the baccy.

its not helping that i get to spend the evening watching telly with Jamie and Andy, who will both chainsmoke their way through the evening. especially since Andy smokes Malboro lights, and they smell worse than Jamie's rollies